| Many of you, know me like the back of my hand when it comes to love and men. Anyone who is anyone that is reading this will know that I am bi, yes but in real life I can't ever find a girl anymore because I know I will shatter them like I've shattered the men that I've once liked. Possibly I've even cause suicide's and pain to many men that I've ever tempted. Since about two years ago, there have been men all over the country that have been wanting me to be with him and I've been with them. But once I realize that I don't like them, I kill them with the words like "We're over" or "It's just not working out". Such words have haunted me every day when there are romance movies on. I watch those movies to see if I can ever find someone that is right for me and not just another infatuated kid or man. To the men that I've fallen for, I thank you for the emptiness you've filled. But I am sorry to every guy that I've hurt:
Andrew: You've been the most consistant guy I've met with keeping me happy and trying to get me back. I know that we will be great friends but I don't know if I can be anything more because I've hurt you so much. It kills me that I make you so depressed and want to do something that I never want you to do. I made everything for you worse and even dangerous when it came to our past and our feelings. You never know what the future can bring us either darling.
Jarod: After the letter you sent me, I realized that all I ever do it tempt guys and make them "fall" for me. I never want to make every guy think of me any way than a friend and you are one of them I just want to at least get to know. I know you think that I gave you a chance, but you gave me the chance to finally |
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